Monday, July 23, 2007
i really want to be a better person
lately i am not feeling well..although u can say i can chat to nuren for like 4hours and kaem for 3hrs!!and saying i'm sick? *cough*cough* but i am..maybe it's the weather..it's raining all day long yesterday..even today..haiyo...and the langit was like mendungggg je..otak haku pun mendung...je. ;D memang mood swings gilerr2..like times 1000000..huhuhu..i dunno why..hormones?nah..i'm lack of dat ;p it must be the weather..
azz called me today.it's s0o good to hear familiar voices through the phone.it makes you feel like 'sunny day'.it's been a while since pee called anyway.i know,you're on tight budget.it's ok :) me,defintely on tight budget too.just bought alang's gifts and hafta wait till next week.to get fiza's gift plak ;p i need cash to even buy a card phone.so i can call pee.promised him.but nanti2lah..anyway,msn kan ada.. =) i hope it will be sunny on saturday..so i can go for a walk with azz and nadz at the park..and breakfast too..finger crossed v
well..i really wanna be a better person.good one.body and soul..but ada..je benda yang halang.i cried again today.why?ntah.i dont have any specific reasons.it must be the weather.i hate being guilty..it's the worst and the weirdest feelings ever! it's not like i did something wrong..but sometimes even other people yang buat salah..i plak yang rasa bersalah..huhu..to mama..although you're not reading this..i dunno why..i just feel like saying sorry to you..BIG time..i may be the kinda of person who likes to choose her own way..stubborn and spoilt.if i'm not a good person.teach me to be one.if i'm not a better person.teach me to be one.how i hope i could be a better person each day.ya Allah..do give me strength..amin...
it must be the weather..haishh..